You have Crohn’s. Crohn’s does not have you.
Just because you have a disease doesn’t mean that disease controls your life. It’s perfectly normal, and you’re justified to feel anger, fear, resentment, denial, guilt and even relief. Join a support group for IBD patients. Talk with a therapist or counselor about your feelings. It’s okay to have difficulty coping with IBD. It’s a terrible disease that nobody would ask for. Let your family know how you feel; talk with friends and loved ones and tell them your struggles and feelings. They may not understand, but they are willing to listen and be supportive. Don’t allow yourself to be held responsible for your IBD.