In the mean time be kind to yourself, remember there is no way of objectively measuring love. Love can be a feeling, but it can also be defined as wanting the best for the person you love regardless of how you feel. If you are caring for your child and keeping your child happy and healthy, that is objective proof that you love your child despite feeling down.
In my humble opinion,
C Marlo Baird, MD, MPH
Believe that, “I care for my child”
Do not compare yourself with other mothers.
Write your history of depression in the past, your pregnancy course, support/lack of support which you had from your husband or other family members; and your functioning during pregnancy.
Then See a Psychiatrist for Diagnosis, possibly Post- partum Depression; and Treatment.
Depression treatment has good results to improve your functioning.