I'm so sorry to hear you've been suffering from anxiety and depression for so long. Medications can be helpful to take the edge of some of these disorders but, as you found out, they often have side effects, addiction potential and often lose their effectiveness over time. I, and many others, have successfully treated anxiety and depression with counseling or therapy. This is not a quick fix, but it sidesteps all the medication problems. It typically takes three months of therapy to notice a difference and six months to a year and a half to resolve.